Interesting question
Friday, March 2, 2018 at 4:15PM Someone asked me an interesting question today-do I ever have days where it's hard......
It made me think about how I live my life, how I portray myself to others. Many of my Clients, Friends, and those close to me know my life's ups and downs (I use myself as an example alot!!!), but my peace of mind sticks out stronger than my strife with life. Do I wear my heart on my sleeve? Nope! Although everyone who knows me would probably say that is not true.....I do have tough days, especially currently while I am supporting my Sis through a terminal illness-but those tough days and moments do not last long as I have tools to feel and release any thoughts or emotions that interfere with my daily peace of mind. At times, my struggle lasts days, sometimes weeks-Dark Night of the Soul, anyone??
I am a Healer, but I am also a Human with deep overwhelming emotions at time. Looking at the question that I was asked earlier, I step into Gratitude for the validation that I do walk my walk and talk my talk. And-I do break down, and when that happens it is not an "ugly cry" as so many refer to it, but it is an acknowledgement and release of something that is bigger than me and I can't handle on my own. I use the tools that I have gathered over the past 28 years, I use what I have been taught and what I teach. I call in ArchAngel Michael immediately to help me, just help me-he knows what I need, I don't! And yes, at times I definitely do not listen. He nicknamed me 'Spitfire' because of that....So, you see, my life is not filled with Meditation music, Patchouli, and bliss all the time. I cuss like crazy some days, LOVE Metallica, and Led Zepplin, and Pearl Jam, and many more, I am not Vegan, I do get angry at times, all of my food is not Organic. Sounds like I am being sarcastic, right? I am not. As one of my Teachers taught me, "Healers are held to a higher standard, bathed in a different light"-I am a person just like anyone else, and I have learned over the years that being engaging and authentic is not a bad thing to do with Clients and Students. That is who I am, I can't be anyone else because I am a horrible liar and actress!
I love my Tribe, and when a Friend asks me a question because she needs support, I am grateful that I can be that support and also remind myself of the support I have as well. It takes courage to feel the emotions that can knock us on our butt! So often we are told not to cry or don't be so emotional-little ones cry and have tantrums because they cannot handle what is going on, why can't we? Once we learn the coping skill or tool, we use that, but until then I say let's feel the deep stuff and ask for support.
Namaste-Jess
